I am longing to live out my lifelong fantasies of being sexually used and abused. That is to say within safe and sane levels. Since I was a I've known that I was different that way, but could never find anyone that understood what I was really all about. I've had relationships go into the toilet because of it. Funny thing that . You get to knowing and trusting someone, feel you can open up to them, and the next thing you know, it's all over. I am in a committed relationship that I have no intention of ending or hurting, but after years of little and then eventually no sex at all, I need to do something to maintain my sanity. After all, even people in jail seem to get sex.

My Ideal Person What I'd really like to find is a woman or couple who are not into wanting a committed relationship with or from me, but do want to periodically have me as her or their sub to thouroghly use and abusesexually. I am bi-curious, have never explored that, but it has to be done at the direction of a woman. I derive enormous pleasure from getting my partner(s) off, so the person(s) must really bre into it for their pleasure, not as a professional deal. Since I hve a home situation, I can't be coming home marked either.